Future

The Wall

You can't pretend you held my hand. I miss your smile, I miss your smile. I need you now, I need you now. I am not scared of falling down, I am not scared of dark, dark clouds.


Heat radiating within my hands,
I feel no chill from where I stand.
Expectation seeks my chills,
Though Spirit already knows of my strong will.
Speaking of strength I look at the wall,
Thinking there I stood, there I would fall.
But decisions show or hide an empty path,
With billions of others if you did the math.

Staring at the wall, I know what it hides.
By the rules of life you must abide.
NO TRESPASSING a sign declares,
Anyone who dares faces the wrath of the police,
The sirens blare.

Snowflakes touch my fingertips,
Each one contains a word.
One option, one piece to life to add,
Or discard as if it's no worth.
Confusion unravels as you look at this wall,
Feeling as if you're without.
The clock ticks on in even beats,
Water curing the lifeless drought.
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I now sit within an empty home
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The winter frost upholds my window,
I touch the cold, sullen glass.
Last year I mourned whatever was left,
Laying flowers upon the grass.

I walked through a valley far and wide,
Searching for a faithful guide.
One spirit walked along with me,
Until so known I forgot and could not see.
No, I did not mourn the loss,
Another came along with the frost.
I smiled at companionship,
But something was missing.
Tuned out to the birds I could only listen.
Humans didn't interest me, nor I did them;
They only looked for compelling murder,
All my sins condemned.
I shook my head and walked away,
Sad that life has to be this way.

The world alone looks so spacious and free,
But we are all held within society.
Greed and the villians make the ground dry,
From this thought I could surely cry.
When I think of my dream world,
All my wants it holds,
The paper divided and freedom unfolds.
But I am held within the confines of life,
Making everything hard to just feel alright.
Weeping over the generic concept,
None of my needs acknowledged or met.
Don't you just know you need something else?
Necessities met, or you live without a pulse.

I don't know what fills the empty hole,
Because I feel I've been dismissed from my soul.
Comprehension escapes the exact,
Because everything is fact
And never that of possibilty.

The higher scares me to no end,
Because then our 'reality' breaks or bends.
You can never expect even though you ponder,
Through space and time I wish I could wander.
Can't you hear the whispers that exist within the sphere?
Sometimes loud, others are mere.
Hope for the best of what the future holds,
Or else we're screwed with empty holes.

We can wish, we can dream
For all of that we've never seen.
We can learn, we can be,
But it seems impossible to be free.

Maybe it's that day, we're old and 83,
That day we close our eyes.
We're underneath the covers,
Smiling at our lover,
Remembering our brothers,
Mothers, and all significant others.
Seeking the truth, forgetting the lies,
We pry.
The day that wall comes down and crashes,
Never thinking to pick up the ashes.
Moving on the day you died,
forgetting all the tears you cried,
Moving on to the brighter side.
Remembering you, remembering me...
We're finally free.


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Of this forgetting all we're told,
this is what the future withholds.
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xoxo