I wish I was a tree

11.08.09
Salvation-Citizen Cope
Lucky you-The National

I wish I was a tree
a tiny insect
that means nothing to me.
Leaves rid the naked trees
mid autumn days.
They cannot survive
the harsh change of weather.
Cold days
Cloudly ways
depression scripts the death
of all who cannot survive.
But that oak tree is still standing
buried deep into the ground
He is still standing.
He feels the cold
He feels the demise of his leaves
of everything around him
but he remains
standing 10 feet tall.
My ex-lover
my still lover
I think of you
my arrogance
my ignorance
involuntary inflected pain.
Intentions broken
heart unspoken
drowning in the love that will never leave.
If I was able
to ask how you remain stable
You avoid it with everything in you.
I feel your pain
I feel your tears on my fingertips
resulting in agony.
I idolize
the love you hold so close to me
with everything I have.
From the tips of my toes
to the depth of my weakning bones
you mean so much to me.
The day you left my mind
I remained in yours
never a day did you go on
without wondering
just how I was.
I admire
your grace
your talents
all the lovely chemicals you see in me
that no one else does.
My callouses
tore you limb from limb
but your desire never died
it never died.
Constant thoughts race through me
yet I always come back to this.
Let me become
what destiny has planned.
Maybe the future
will better let me appreciate
the beautiful person you are
You're beautiful
inside and out
I see it
but I don't always feel it.
You need this
You deserve this
You deserve everything
the universe robbed you of.
You truly do.

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