Teach me how to fly

dear you,
blinded
captivated
held back.
words being thrown around
yet nothing else matters.
a couple once
two individuals today
still an ache dwells within me.
what was once mine
is now forever lost
try,try,try
but that voice whispers me now.
pushed him too far
even if he wanted to comeback
he just couldn't.
with open arms
I beckon your presence.
miss him today
struggle for life tomorrow
three words have never meant so much.
i miss you
i love you
dearest boy
you ask me to come home
forever and a day is stuck in my mind.
dearest first love
you made me so happy
just hold me
please just hold me.